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WoOOOOaaahh!!!! lame glerrr ta update!!! rumah taley on9..! dikawal ketat oleh sgale makhluk! tu la pasal..hahahahha.....now da stabble! genduuu sumeenyew.....! gendu gylO2 nan mmbe2 fb! gendu !!!!! arghhhh!!!!

feeling...

dunia ..o dunia.hujan pun menangis..cinta ku ditelan dunia..langgit ooo langit hatiku teriris cinta matiku kan pergi...maaf aku  maaf...ku yang x fahami semua inginmu..maaf aku ..ku yang x mampu ...HUJAN PUN MENANGIS -anang-   huwmmm....i'm missing someone sooo much..biasanya..pagi2 macam ni dah bebising kami.. wish good morninq and so on...but pagi ni lain yang ku rasakan..aku seperti ketakutan...berasa untuk tidak menggangunya...kerana ku tahu..dia inginkan ketenangan..kehadiran ku ANNOY bagi dia.. aku x mampu mmbahagiakannya...! sebaliknya aku melukai hatinya..tidak pernah terlintas dalam fikiran ku untuk sengaja melakukan semuanya...menyakitinya...juga sakit buat aku...sakit sekali.. aku ingin dia...!  sunyi terasa pagi ini...menunggu mesej .. panggilan or khabar mengenainya...ingin sekali ku menegurnya..tapi aku pengecut...aku x brani melakukannya..aku takut akan menyakitinya lagi...aku takot dia akan rasa terganggu dengan setiap , segala yang aku lakukan.... yang dapat ku lakukan sekarang hanya lah menunggu.. berdiam.. hatiku jantungku seperti ada pisau yang menikamku...rasanya sakit sekali...! aku inginkan dia...! sayang! ku mencintaimu..!!! argghhhhh!!!gugu!! ada hak lagikah ku memangginya GUGU...dari semalam ku terfikir fikir..masih dianggapkah aku? huwmmm... aku dapat rasakan perubahan yang terjadi setelah dia mengisi hidup2 ku..aku lebih suka akan ketenangan berbanding keadaan yang riuh sebelumnya...aku lebih suka kegelapan berbanding sebelumnya aku amat takot akan kegelapan ... dan hujan renyai2 yang lebih membuatkan ku tenang dari hujan.... aku merasakan banyak perubahan... aku cinta dia..! aku mau semua orang tau aku cinta dia..even Tuhan tak suka dengan cara kami berhubungan.... love dia....cinta mati...my endless love...just dia... huwmmmm....UNTUK SELAMANYA.............. mesti orang yang baca note neh ketawa nan ayat2 ku....doi!!!  hope xda yang salah...! :'( choooooooooow!

love her forever

argghhh..gado lagi malam neh...lagi dahsyat!!! pai aku x tahan dengar dia nanges...!!! gugu..!! gaga mintamaaf lor...always make u cry n cry...but bukan gaga mau gugu nanges..! gaga juga x mau gugu nanges..kenapa gaga jahat sanggat bia gugu nanges ea?? gaga cinta gugu... eme.. siz nic say sorry lor...melibatkan siz plak lam hal neh kan..!!! gugu!! jangan lah kurang kan % cinta sama gaga..!! gaga cinta gugu..sumpah..!! pai mati gaga cinta sama gugu..gaga say soe law gugu x penah happy sama gaga..tapi bukan itu yang gaga harapkan..gaga harapkan gugu happy always...happy sayang...gaga baca blog gugu... huwm.. terharu ada...sad ada..semua prasaan ada..mara pun ada..but..yang pentinggaga mau gugu tao gaga cinta gugu..just gugu..! x mau sad2 g coz gaga okey... harap yang hari ni last gugu sedih..gaga hope sangt gaga x wat gugu nnges g..! hope sangt..!!!  x dapat tido coz pikir smua neh..x penah lam hidup ku suka orang sehebat yangku rasakan sekarang...love u..love u u and u..just u..hope tomorrow n after this kita happy2 jew keh..sumpah gaga trauma nan smua neh... 2 kali dah benda neh mnghantui gaga!!! takot...sumpah gaga takot kena tnggl gugu..gaga cinta mati sama gugu..cinta gila2..! forever...till end of my life dear! :'( 


nicole cinta elis forever...!!! love you.... 

feeling...

pain my heart cannot compare with anything else...! how dare she do like this to me..if she know that it was so mush hurtin me .. if she know that my heart only for her..if she know that i'm just happy with her.. goood what..! but!!arrrhhh... y she do like this...! i'm sorry larh if i'm hurtin you! but i dont know what am i doin ! y u angry to me like this? if YOU not love me just tell me ok...dont play with people feelin.. i can accepted if you not love me n pls just say it! huwmmm! jangan buat mcm2 reason pls...huwmm... nyte .. i'm alone..! :'(  miss yuo.. but ..arrhhhh ..

what ever i feel in my mind

waaa.. it is a long time i am didn't upgrd my blog . hihi.. no , bad internet connection n a bit busy is a factor why i'm rarely online n didn't upgrd my blog .. hummm , this week nothing awesome n speacial maybe.. macam2 perasaan yang keep play at my brain.. sad , happy , lonely , scared semua ada ! but yang paling ku rasai ialah merindui someone ... RINDUUUUU dia... rindu dia yang sopan , x rude , dia yang care , dia yang garang , dia yang segala galanya la! rinduu...sumpah rindu sangt at dia .. tapi cara dia , semua tntang dia skrg da lain , sedikit rude n suka merepek .. and just the afternoon she ask me a SHIT question 'bby mau madu??' patut kah dia tnya atau adakah dia mmng tringin OR mmng da carikan madu tuk ku?? takot sangt lOr...coz semua ku da kc at dia full of me .. my heart , life n everything i hope just with her..n now if dia macam2 apa akan jadi sama ku? adakah makhluk yang dapat temankan ku mcm mana dia temankan aku slama neh? maybe yes..maybe no ryte ...!!! ohhh elis..!!!!  pls dont leave me..! love you...porever...even gaga mandul gugu jangan kesah ehhh!!! hakahkahkahak...ok chow..xda apa mau ckp g..daaaaaaaaaaa... nyte...

_gugu porfavor- hahahahahah

just my lOve

CINTA lahhh gugu! mestila cinta...gaga cinta gugu..just gugu gaga kita...!!! just kita...yg len background ja..wakakkaka!!! tacink mak sait2 luar sana t gaga kap cam neh..wahahahaha!!!! (becoz i loe u..i do anything..i give u my heart my erthing...)  menulis sambil dngar lagu romance neh..best gak...jem traffic at lam otak neh ..wakakkakakkakaa!!! oke continue baac... act , x sabaw mau jumpa tnggl at rumah dia lor..lau dipelawa...mmng x sabaw mau ehem2..(kahakhakhakhakh) yeahhh..semakin hari mmng semakin bertmbah cintaku sama dia lOr...nda pernah kureng... even setanicfjsakh uw suka kacOp relationship kitorg...but nda berkesan bha!!! cinta kuat ma..lawan tu setanichjfehwoie   wakkakakaka!!!!! huwmmm , malo gak a..lau ingt masa lalu..dia bukan cinta aku pun time uw..aku yg beria ia...mcm CHAPI kena tarik ekor!!! dia x suka pon aku..but aku cinta dia..ku kejar gak sampai lubang buntut gajah!!! relaku...hOpe skrg dia ikhlas lOr cinta sama ku...gado mmng lah hari2...i swear hari2 mmng ada jew masalah..but x sampai sejam..kita berbaik g..lau gado uw mmng panik gler a..cam semalam.... sampai akuhhh mcm chapi ketakutan kena wogOl jew...!!! ada kew patut dia suruh aku pergyyy...pegyyy3!!! sampai dia halau akuhhhh.... blarr3..!! hahahhahaha..but pas uw..aku mndiamkan dri..coz dah x taw kap pa...blink..pikiran lam OX ku hanya tuhan yang tahu..mcm2 ada..wakakkakaka!!!!! cinta sama gugu ejw okeh...tamo pikir bukan2...hahhaa...HAPPPY lor..sama gugu...gugu xda xtaw la apa jadi sama hidup org uw..hhihi..now kita happy2 ja...xda pun apa2 hari nehh..maybe setan dah penat ..dia tidur..tamo kacaw kami..hahhahahaha!!!!! nehhh...setan dia baru ja HASUT dia...!! ada ke patut dia mesej akuuu ckppp 'MESTI HANCUR BAHASA MELAYU' padahal..pro giler bahasa ku dari yg dia pnya....!!! buktinya..tngok la...!! law time exam mcm nehhh kan bagus...ruginya dulu xda yang ajar ku..!!! haha. now oke sngt...ok g dari yang diorg...chheeeehh perasan sude...OK la..chOw..bnyak cakap toilll!!! that y malasa tulis blog...coz lau tulis mmng xda yang ringkas2..hahaha!!! chow...

nic elis forever..gugugagapunya!!!!! hahaha...

Facebook joy and trouble

FB.. faceBook .GREACE NICOLE. first time i am make it. i feel nothing special there. just friend...just make a friiend and sufr more people with the diffrent culture and diffrent thing...i make it just for FUN.. dont know y..lastly this is what i got. Everything..fun , love , friendship , everything .. funny.. for me..they are very mean to be.. Honestly , i happy with themm. they let me know about everything .. love..everything...i swear i happy.. no wonder la i always online on time n sleep lately every night..my new life will begin again soon .. i hope i will learn something new from there.. friend. i have to make it myself.. yess..i have to.. what i want is peace.. no disturd and annoy pple there..that can crash my brain... no no no..i cannot live like this..haha..i waas talkin yeahh...just MEROYAN here.. let's talk bout FB again.. but behind the joy, the sorrow also there. Difficult to imagine, there was a sense of regret after the acquaintance with my friends in this facebook. Day by day, a friend who is expected to fill the leisure time away .. feel sad when they are getting away from us. Day after day, there is only a good story is sad or happy :)  :(   .i miss my all friend in facebook before....they are GILA2 with me..but now.. nothing.. they are quiet busy.. some of them have to work study and whatevver.. I MISS THEM a lot .. :'(

what ever i feel in my mind

:'( mau nngeh ase...i week nehh...GADO jew terus...!! i late kami gado...i x rep..kami gado! how to handle it...Gods!! help me..i Love her...but law prangai i macam nehh...sampai bila bertaha..i taw i sala..! i wat cam neh..sapa x mare...sapa x hot...but..kalau sengaje mmng x i buat....!! i x sngajew...law i x rep..late apa la...mesti dia pikir bukan2...! i x mau dia pikir macam tu..!! i cinta dia...itu yang patut dia pk kan la paleox dia!! but...never..pangai i buat dia pk mcm2...!! Degil...keras kepala.!!! grr... i sayang u..law perlu..i maw satu Dunia taw i syg u..even kita neh less!!!! i x kesah..i x malu..coz..i sayang u..CINTA u...please..!! caya sama CINTA i..!!!:'( xda org len yg i chennnta exceptu..please..jangan buat i rasa SYOK SENDIRI....!!! law x cinta ke..apa kew...jgn ckp i suka org len...curang n whatever...coz..i ada u ja..!!! just u...mcm mana ...apa yang patut i buat bia u caya sama cinta i....u x penah yakin sama cinta i..!! x penahhhhhh.... yg u tao..i wat menda len..i curang and whatever...PIKIR la..law i x sayang u...x cinta u..da lama i curang....! please la weiiii..!!  nehhh..baru jew dapat message dari dia ... BENCI taw x u ckp cam neh...sikit2..u cakap i gado or what nan Jason....brapa kali i cakap..Jason i xda papew g..!!!!! xda papew...please awak....jgn buat i lemah cam nehhhh...!!! I CINTA U..forever...that what u must know......

CINTA U FOREVER gugu... :'(

truly madly

arrrgghhh.... it is 2 o'clck already lol.... same with yesterday.. my love n me sleep very late in da mownink...but..not gud lorr... kepala dia sakit2 lOr.. suda suruh dia tydO...but still lagi mau online... degil kan?memang degil...!! hari2 ada jew benda buat dia merajuk n mara2...! but...we can still standin now... hahaha... law da happy..happy gler2..law gado...mood zero..tu la rutin kami..! and!!! 1 incdent i cannot forget till now..!!!timecall dia...mcm biasa la..panggil 'sayang' but that day...mama dia yang angkat...panik dOe!!! trus ku off fone..hahahhaha!!!!!! dy neh memang cerewet la sikit ehh (banyak) sampaikan hal remeh temeh pon dijadikan isu..! ada jew la yg buat dia hot..mmng grg kan? but that y i love her lor..love her damn much!!!


-forever love elis n nic-

i'll love you forever

arrrrrggghhh!!!! i miss my girl!!! gugu!!! i miss you...!! damn... semakin lama..semakin kuat cinta ku sama dia.Hoooooooo... apa dia da buat sama aku? kenapa aku selalu ingat dia.. 1 hari x message dia.. boleh gila .. 1 hari kita xda contact... boleh kena heart attack tu! gila toil perasaan ini..! but.. yang membuatku tertanya tanya..adakah dia rasa apa yang ku rasa?? huwm...tah la .. maybe yes maybe no...hihi.. rindu sangat sama dia.. 


LOVE YOU FOREVER AND ALWAYS  darla....

what ever i feel in my mind

uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!! 3 hari neh...seminggu neh kot...my relationship nan elis bad gler2..!!!! grrr... hari2 gado..1 hari x gado..x sah la..ada jew topik pergaduhan..!! tapi last2 oke ahhh... gado berbaik...gado berbaik...berbaik jew gado..itu lah rutin kita setiap hari...! but een selalu gaduhhh...i love her lorh!!cannot live without her..ecehh2..kata mat salleh...cinta dia sorg lorhhh..!!!  my couple grg gler lorhhh....kadang2 nda tahan..!! hakhakhak..mcm ghimau!!!! mcet x rep..mara...call x angkt mara..law mara2 cam tu xpa..!!! bikin panas...but tat y la i love her!!!! hihihi... ase bhagia dop bla sama dia!!!  but kita x penah gado seterok yg hari ni kot...dia diam jew....!! x bunyi...mara betul saia...geram...! ase mau wogol ja fone uw!!!  anyway...i dah 3 BULAN 1 HARI lorrr sama dia..bhagia ase...x sangka leh cpel slama ni...! biasanya..x sampai 2 mnggu msti clash..! love dia...!!! harap2 relationship kita makin lama loorhhh....lau gado tu..tolak ansur sikit la 1 same len ea!!!! jgn sampai mau clash or what!! not gud lorhhh...LOVE YOU sayang .  -ELIS ,GUGU ,MY BOO , ABY! MY BEI -   LOVE YOU FOREVER N ALWAYS-

what ever i feel in my mind

zaman kejatuhan NICOLE s coming gain lol!!! no working.... doing nothing at home..like before looooor! haiz.. stoking awez gie me suggestion bout my last decission..workin or contnue study.. haha..but it cannot help me...anyway thank la to stok..yesterday she call me 2 time and i neer pick it up...hahaha..sorry lor..and bout my couple..so many trouble happen to her...from A to Z .. so pity to her la..coz her ex girlfriend doin shit on her FB..but i dont want to TOO open my oppinion coz..it is just between she n her ex.. so,just see la.. and now...im very2 worry bout something..something that making me very like want to thrown away ma brain....xixixixixiixixx!!!! I LOVE HER... that what i want to say everyday.... always...forever and ever...!! just ELIS loorr...my gugu...but,the one thing that makin me very worry is...(is it im just DREAMING that she is sincere love me...is she love me? is it true? what i read n evrything i saw that very strong to ma heart say that she is just like me? and no love from her to me? DONT KNOW larhhhh... so many thing happen to us.. i just can quiet..if im open ma mouth..evrythin gonna be wrong to her...to me..and to us... we ll fightin..HAHA..!neeennnn i love her...that all lor..hope that she oso love me..not just like me...

what ever i feel in my mind

heyyy2..... lama sangt tak luangkan masa dengan mnulis blog...maybe coz busy with ma job...and so on..huwm..so many of stories there...firstly,my job..i have been kick from there now..HAHAHA... cause of some reason..now i stayed home and waitin for another job..PLKN...continue study...or find another job...i cannot make a decission...hohoho...whateer la...as soon as i can do it myself without my parent...i miss them..i mean..i miss my old friend..miss them a lot....especially, alia my kinkkkkkkkkkk....! and aka moon...aka giler...and i miss my old love..i miss my love...gugu....:'( love you damn much syg.....

teribble

ahahahahahhaa!!!! XD TERIBBLE.... i think it was a very easy thing to do...lastly im gie up n fed uo to complete my FULL NOTES...kihkihkih.... lAZY...im lazy :( ..heeee.. anyway...just stop at Day 17...got no idea..anymore...! but i ll try to finished it as soon as possible...! i ll...! but not now...hihi ...

Day 16

 Someone that's not in my state/country.

TMT WEI RONG- I've been gone for so long, and I've written so many things for you that I'm sure you know all that I have to say. But, I still feel like I could have all of the time in the world to type things and say things to you, but it will never be enough. You in person is so much better. It's been so long since you've been here, and we've both honestly changed so much. We used to have to talk to each other every single day... now we hardly talk at all. I hate it. You were everything. My best friend, my strength, and you even protected me against Jav (: hahaha. I couldn't have asked for anything more out of a person. I remember the day you left. I saw you get in your car, and I just started crying. I lost all control of everything. I cried so hard for so long that I remember waking up and asking myself if I had dreamt it all up. The next few weeks were terrible. I felt like I had lost so much, and everytime I needed to talk, I would just cry. People say that they were upset that you left, and that you and them were so close, but there isn't a single person who went through what I did. Only you and I know how that truly felt. We were each other's best friend. That's all there is to it. Just another move, ripping two people away from each other.

I miss you TWR. More than you can ever understand.

Days 15

 The person that I miss the most.

ELIS YUSREZA a.k.a GUGU my dear couple- I miss you so much. The other day, I was thinking about the people that I miss most from the lake, and you were definitely the first one that I thought of. I was so protective over you, and we took care of each other. We held each other when we cried, talked to each other when we needed it, and helped each other when we were mad. I told you everything, and you knew everything about me. We have so many memories together. Something as simple as writing this right now, makes me tear up. I still want you in my life, I still need you there.. I love you elisssss! I always will, and I'm always going to be here for you.LOVE you so muchhh! nothing out there can compare how much i love you..and nothing can pretnd how much i miss you .. ALWAYS.. the person i need in my life only you..JUST you..

WHATEVER

WHATEVER

WHATEVER la you..you always like this..always make me feel like this..d you know how hurt i feel. no right.Y dear? you you always making me feelin jeleous like this..you want me to read your blog.FOr what.Just for making me HOT?? y?  if you still love her...it's ok..just tell me..and cpel back with her.I ll be ok..even my feelin die.  =(

Day 14

The person I hate most, or caused me the most pain.

I've learned from the past that hating someone stirs up your emotions, and wastes your time, so I refuse to hate anyone. There are people who have caused me a lot of pain, but one who is far ahead of anyone else. I won't write down, and desribe what they have done, because I don't think that anyone really deserves the humiliation that it would put them through if I did. They know who they are. The know what they did, and I will never give them a second chance. They taught me that second chances only turn into third, and fourth chances. They aren't welcome in my life anymore, and I don't want anything to do with them

Day 13

 Someone I've drifted away from.

I could write to this person a million times. They know who the are. But I fear that things will never change. Things can't fix themselves and every minute that we spend with out eachother becomes another days worth of damage to repair. I'll always have a place in my heart for you. You've been such a huge part of my life, I can't allow myself to completely let you go. But, there's not much that we can do now. Only time can tell where we are going to end up later down the road.

Day 12

 Someone I wish could forgive me.

I don't think that anyone has something against me that's worth going through the process of forgiveness for.